Its Been A While!

First of all, I just went to title this blog and realized the usage of "a while" or "awhile" has always left me perplexed! I turned to Google, only to come to the conclusion that: the english language is weird! Haha! If anyone is curious though, I believe I used it correctly in my title as a "Noun Phrase" of a-while because the use of "awhile" is an adverb meaning "for a short time." Interesting!

Okay, well now that's settled! On to some updates! I would love to write on here that life has been amazing... that I got a NEW JOB that PAYS way more! Or, I signed up for SCHOOL and am stoked on pursuing the perfect career! Or that I lost 20 lbs by straight diet, exercise and self-conrol! Hmm... Not really.

Life has been quite challenging lately. Overall I'm doing well, but it did take a perspective change to help me understand some of the things God has in my life right now to shape me and mold me. Its been a mixed bag, really. Some heavy stuff, some really fun stuff and then some just Blah stuff. First off, my Grandma is dying of lung cancer. Its really one of those things that you're never prepared for and the crazy reality of death is breath-taking. I have experienced death before with my grandparents on the other side but I think because this is my Mom's mom and the grandma I've always been closer to, its much harder. Really though, the bond we have had in Jesus has been the strength that has helped me through. I flew home 2 weekends ago to visit her and spend my last moments with her. I painted her nails, rubbed lotion on her legs, read her some scripture and cried with her. After lots of tears and even as I write this, I can only be thankful for the precious time we got to spend together, one last time. I will replay the words she said to me over and over in my heart forever. Until we meet again. She is a beautiful, strong and compassionate woman of God and her influence on my life has been profoundly spiritual. I know she will be in God's presence soon and for that, I am actually kind of jealous.
I truly love her and will miss her dearly.



God is very good though because as one life is ending, another is beginning! We celebrated my best friends baby's near arrival last weekend and after all the emails and planning... the shower turned out fantastic! I have absolutely loved watching this new life being formed in my friends womb...its a nice way to live vicariously through her until the time is right for me to have my own. After all I've seen and learned though, I think I can wait. ;)





This weekend has been relaxing, perusing the Street Fair on Adams, playing with friend's puppies, planning Halloween Extravaganzas, bachlorette boudoirs, etc. At this party, it actually came up that I hadn't blogged in FOREVER, so this one's for you, Cyna! Glad someone reads it. ;)

(Emo's new puppy, Baxter! Oh, for life to be this simple)

Tomorrow the agenda is:
Church (with Aloha!)
Call the parents and check in
Watch the Chargers Game
Relax
Practice Guitar

Sounds fabulous to me. Even when life brings me to my knees, I'm very thankful for the blessings that lift me up again.

Even if they are small.

[Your prayers for my Grandma and family are coveted. <3 ]