And how it changes. Wow.
On Taylor's new album she has a song called Never Grow Up and today it made me cry. This must have been the reason I didn't wear make-up today. Sometimes I feel like this song and I just want to click 'pause' on life. Or go back and live at home again. Its a deep longing in me that wants to sleep under the same roof as my parents again and have them buy the groceries or drive me to volleyball or even write me a list of "chores" for Saturday. Or open presents from my Grandma at Christmas. Or smell the apple pie she made on Thanksgiving. I want to never grow up sometimes.
Life is an interesting thing. Its has moments of pure bliss and the change is joyful, renewing and exciting. Then there are moments of utter sorrow and things change that you never wanted to. Life seems to throw you around, never slowing down but always changing. As I look through my pictures, I noticed a few.
...Last year, Kamar, Kim and I threw the Halloween Party. This year, I live with Kamar and Brittany. Kim is married and living with her husband.
...Last year my friend Melissa was Kat Von D for Halloween. This year she is about to have a sweet baby girl and was a "Speed Bump"
...Last year my friend Emily was a pumpkin. This year a hippy and well over 100lbs smaller.
...Last year my Grandma was alive and well, unknowing of the cancer growing in her body. This Halloween she's gone.
Some things are still the same. My blond curly hair. My job. I'm still kind of the same size. (Shoot!) I still have the same amazing friends. Single. Love rap music. Ha. But most importantly, what hasn't changed is my God.
He's the same yesterday, today and forever.
Thankfully. :)
<3 my beanry! Some things change...but my love for your will never change!
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You most definitely are not the same size... give yourself some credit you look amazing. It may not be where you want to be ultimately, but you are moving towards that goal. Either way your stinking gorgeous. Who knows what this time next year holds in store for you?? Growing up and seeing life change can be super scary, but staying the same wouldn't be the adventure God planned for us. God has got you right where he wants you... Following him :) I love you and even though I am having a kid - our friendship WILL NOT change. I promise.
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